Hey Captains, Ugh. This is so not my season. I deal with guilt most of the summer- why can't I enjoy the season more? Why am I not spending every waking available moment outside in the sun? Why am I not out boating and fishing and exercising? Then it's mid August, and the guilt turns … Continue reading End of Summer Panic (And more Guilt)
old desires / new excuses rushes of memories butterflies in my stomach racing heartbeat then sadness like a fold of the ocean over me, crashing with dreaded devastation the impossibility at reaching those love highs ever again
Remember when you looked at me with that smile after I called you back with mock outrage I remember the way you turned, approached and the desire for that to repeat socks me in the gut and it's all I want.
Good Morning Captains, There is a lovely rain falling outside, I'm all alone in the house, I've got my bowl packed and a nice mug of steaming hot coffee beside me.....simply beautiful. I'm trying to picture this type of scene in the future, when I really am alone in the house...all the time. I think … Continue reading Coffee & Marijuana Morning
Hello Captains, The guilt comes from my mom always harking "go outside- enjoy the weather!" growing up. Living in upstate NY, I really should enjoy and take advantage of every second of nice weather. We have such long winters, and all we want in the middle of the icy shit is the weather we're having … Continue reading I Don’t Enjoy Summer- Why The Guilt?
Good Morning Captains, I'm still shaking off the remnants of the dream I had- there's this neighborhood in the city I grew up in, that I frequently dream about. It's a rough street, but in my dream, I was dropping off a sofa to the local drug king pin and I wasn't one bit nervous. … Continue reading Ever Seen a Stripper Have Her Way With a Frat Boy?
I danced in a medium sized city, that has a rather high unemployment rate, compared to cities of similar size and demographic. There are a lot of broken people in that city. There is a lot of mental illness in that city. It is the city I grew up in, and the one that I … Continue reading The truth is, a good amount of us DO have daddy issues….