Here I am again. This time I want to discuss friendships. Like, real down and dirty friendships. Like that bestie that is always there for you, will never bullshit you but tell you straight how it is, the one you can confide anything to.
Sigh. I wish I had one. I was thinking on the way home how I feel like I haven’t had anything close to this since I left dancing. And were those friendships that real? I did have one friend who I thought was close with, but she went psycho on me (for the 2nd time in the span of our friendship) and I had to block her. Sometimes I really miss her crazy ass. I try to find her on FB, but she’s a sneaky one.
I’m not usually very social, but I was listening to a podcast with these two best friends, and I just felt this longing. Not as intense as the longing I feel when I listen to two soulmates squabble in a cute way. I wish I had that too.
Someday, I think I will. Have both a bestie and a soulmate. If I don’t, it won’t kill me either, but it would be nice to get there.