In my mind, there are three main reasons that you would really regret your past relationships: 1) Abuse (Physical? Emotional? Both?) 2) Introduction to Drugs/Enablement 3) Financial Abuse I have been a victim of #1 & 3; Considering the crowd I once ran with, I am very lucky to have never partied to the point... Continue Reading →
Let's talk about emotional abuse. Emotional abuse is a BITCH. And unfortunately, it's a sneaky ass bitch as well. My first husband was the biggest asshole when we were together. 6'5 and hovering around 350 lbs, he used his size to intimidate everyone around him. He threatened and belittled me, he threatened and belittled his... Continue Reading →
Hey girl, One thing I've been turning over and over in my head, is a calculation of selfishness vs. determination. Obviously, the future of my marriage is often on my mind, and one argument you can be sure will rear its ugly head when the can of worms gets opened, is how selfish I am.... Continue Reading →
Hey girl, Tonight I was sitting in my little room, super annoyed and irritable, really needing to get laid, and just pissed off at him down, by default. It's been one of those weeks, when the lack of intimacy in our relationship is really bothering me. And the thing is, I'm not really going to... Continue Reading →
Hey girl, It has come to my attention, that as you enter your thirties, self-care becomes a non-negotiable. At least, it should be a non-negotiable by the time you hit that decade. Let’s face it- life gets pretty tedious in your thirties. Usually, there’s a marriage, a mortgage & kids thrown into the mix by... Continue Reading →
My thoughts still linger On the what if Why can’t I give it up And live this ordinary life My guilt wrestles with desire Some days aren’t so bad.
I got home late tonight, as I went to the gym after work and WENT IN AT THE GYM, you know what I mean? I had some pent up aggression for some reason....I Hi Captains, I was late getting home tonight, which he knew about. I went to the gym after work and really WENT... Continue Reading →
Hello Captains, Oh, Daddy. I am so conflicted about this person that I share 50% of my DNA with. First off, my dad is a drunk. My mom was a drunk back in the day, and luckily for me and my sister, she got sober when we were pretty young. My dad didn't, so you... Continue Reading →
Hey girl, I have to tell you about this fucking bullshit dream I had last night. I was hanging out with my ex-husband (whhhyyyyyyy must you haunt my dreams!) on a trip somewhere, and there was this sexy ass dude (I think it might have been Jason Momoa, mmm) that my ex had given me... Continue Reading →
Hey there, Lately I've been listening to lots of podcasts with bloggers, but like OG bloggers from the earlier internet days. And I think about my previous identity that I rocked back in those days and fuck, I wish I had really capitalized on the early blogosphere days. Back in 2008 I was obsessed with... Continue Reading →
